busy day and "fun" nights

Well, today has been a busy day. It started with having an "official" pregnancy test. The doctor had to do one for the insurance (medicaid) so I could have a 'doctor's note.' I did that with Jacob this morning while Scott was asleep. I then applied for the insurance and made another doctor's apointment. I have since spent the rest of the day planning Jacob's birthday (family) party this weekend and trying to keep Jacob quiet.
Scott is still being a pain in the butt. He is working nights five nights per week and is always onery. I'm trying to be patient with him. I know he is exausted, but there is only so much of his attitude I can take. To top it off, Jacob is noticing that daddy won't play with him and so he's getting upset too. I don't know how to explain that to a one-year-old. I wish that Scott would just deal with the fact of being worn out long enough to have an hour of playing with Jacob just so he still knows he has a dad. I also wish he would have a conversation with me without saying "I'm too tired to care." All well, I guess I need to just deal with it.

Life goes on.

Well here it is, day....three of knowing I'm pregnant (as far as 2 home tests go) and life sucks. Scott is basically roaming the house moping. He acts like its my fault that I'm pregnant. He seems to forget it takes two to tango and I'm just as shocked as he is. I try to make him smile, but somehow I just make it worse. I wish I knew what to do. I've came to gripps with the fact and yes, its going to be a pain having two kids so young, but life goes on. I want this baby and I'm actually happy that I'm pregnant....for the most part. I WOULD be happy is Scott would cheer up and quit saying things. I mean, he keeps saying things like he hopes the tests were wrong and (to sum it up) that he doesn't want it. I don't know what to do. I want him to be happy, but the only way to do that is something I wont even justify by saying. I'm so scared that this baby won't be loved at all by its daddy. What can I do?