busy day and "fun" nights

Well, today has been a busy day. It started with having an "official" pregnancy test. The doctor had to do one for the insurance (medicaid) so I could have a 'doctor's note.' I did that with Jacob this morning while Scott was asleep. I then applied for the insurance and made another doctor's apointment. I have since spent the rest of the day planning Jacob's birthday (family) party this weekend and trying to keep Jacob quiet.
Scott is still being a pain in the butt. He is working nights five nights per week and is always onery. I'm trying to be patient with him. I know he is exausted, but there is only so much of his attitude I can take. To top it off, Jacob is noticing that daddy won't play with him and so he's getting upset too. I don't know how to explain that to a one-year-old. I wish that Scott would just deal with the fact of being worn out long enough to have an hour of playing with Jacob just so he still knows he has a dad. I also wish he would have a conversation with me without saying "I'm too tired to care." All well, I guess I need to just deal with it.

Life goes on.

Well here it is, day....three of knowing I'm pregnant (as far as 2 home tests go) and life sucks. Scott is basically roaming the house moping. He acts like its my fault that I'm pregnant. He seems to forget it takes two to tango and I'm just as shocked as he is. I try to make him smile, but somehow I just make it worse. I wish I knew what to do. I've came to gripps with the fact and yes, its going to be a pain having two kids so young, but life goes on. I want this baby and I'm actually happy that I'm pregnant....for the most part. I WOULD be happy is Scott would cheer up and quit saying things. I mean, he keeps saying things like he hopes the tests were wrong and (to sum it up) that he doesn't want it. I don't know what to do. I want him to be happy, but the only way to do that is something I wont even justify by saying. I'm so scared that this baby won't be loved at all by its daddy. What can I do?

Life...updated

Well, here it is the begining of June and I haven't written anything since Febuarary. Scott has graduated from SUU and I have the summer off. We're going to drive each other crazy before he gets a full time job. Because of this fact, Jacob and I are going to my parents to stay for the week next tuesday. To be honest, I'm not sure whether it will be better or not.....
Anyway, we've moved...again. We're still in Cedar, but we found a place that is a little cheaper and a WHOLE LOT nicer. We have permission to paint, fix anything....basically we own this lady's basement. The only problem I have with it are her cats...they fight all the time at night but I'm not going to complain too much about it.
Other than that, it's just life as usual. Jacob is almost walking. He's pulling himself up to everything...furniture, legs, walls,... you name it. He's getting way too big...mentally. We took him to the doctors for his checkup and we found out he's a shrimp! He's in the 7th percentile for his height, and in the 23rd for his weight. All well. I guess he is just like his mother.

ramblings

Well, here it is Feburary.... well, almost halfway through. Things haven't changed too much. I'm still stuck babysitting for our neighbor (she babysits for us) whose kid is ALWAYS sick. I swear not a week goes by with him healthy. Anyway, Jacob is almost standing by himself. He can pull it off for about a half-second. He's also starting to get his first tooth. He hasn't been the happiest of kid lately because of it. I can't wait until it's out. he can start eating the cherios that my sister keeps giving me for him. (we have about 6 boxes already with the promise of more).
Scott's almost through with school. He just has this semester left and I can't wait until he's done. (for many different reasons) The main reason being he'll be happier and less stressed. Another is he can get an actual full time job instead of this crappy one where you don't know IF you'll even have it tomorrow.
The best part is we might be able to move out of this apartment! I know we just moved 6 months ago, but we have a very annoying neighbor. her kids' room is right next to ours and lets just say 1) paper thin walls, 2)kids with a late bedtime who don't want to sleep and 3) work at 6:00 do NOT mix. All well... soon enough it will be over.

get off the roads, Jacob is driving.

This is the little runt on his new favorite toy. Once we put him in it, he will only get out if he's hungry.

This little Jeep has saved my arms. He refuses to sit or lay down most of the time.

Update.

Well, what can I say about the last....well over four months? Jacob was born August 10th and 10:08 in the morning. I called it. My mom was saying it would be on 08/08/08 and my mother in law was saying it would be 08/09, scott's birthday. I kept saying he'd come a day later than all of them, just because they wanted him to come then. (HA! mom really does know best!)
Anyway, He's be both a pain and a blessing. He's really an overall great kid (sleeps through the night...mostly, rarely cries unless he's hungary, ect.) but lately we think he's starting to teeth.....not fun. Also, he has had it in his head for months that he has to be standing at every moment. (I'm not kidding, from about three weeks on, he refuses to sit or lay down) We finally fixed that problem over Christmas by getting him a walker. I was starting to get muscles in my arms though.
I'm still going to school. I start full time on monday. I'm not likeing the babysitting situation though. I'm getting jipped. I'm babysitting for 15 hours to the other girl's 5. All well, I'm just going to tell her that I need to be paid for those ten extra hours. I wouldn't be so mad if it wasn't for two things. 1) this is what happened last semester and she refused to ever realize how uneven it was and 2) it's THAT big of a difference. All well, life goes on.

Life as I know it.

Well, here it is....another day. Things are actually very calm right now. We finally got the car fixed (WE HAVE AIR CONDITIONING NOW!!!!! YAY!!!!) But now the truck is leaking transmission fluid so I'm STILL without a vehicle while Scott takes the car to work. All well... it happens.
I've also been deep cleaning our already-cleaned apartment...again. I'm soooo bored that I've cleaned every closet, cubbard and drawer at least twice....and rearranged furniture in every room at least once. I need a hobby. I've tried sewing...hahaha. Any other ideas?
Anyway, I'm now sitting here writing while my husband reads over my shoulder and tries to figure out how to get to my blog to read it... VERY entertaining. I love this game. Keep one thing somewhat private from him and watch him go crazy! All well... I guess I'll be the loving wife and show him how after I'm through writing this.
Hope everythings going good for you.
Jentri